Tuesday, June 16, 2015
FETAL DEMISE. Until I heard those words uttered by the ER Doctor, I never new two small words could destroy me in just a moment. I knew when the ultrasound tech didn't show me the heartbeat after her exam that it was over. I still held out some kind of hope that maybe they were reading it wrong or maybe the baby was jsut measuring small. Nope. I had miscarried around two weeks before just a very short time after my 8 week appointment where I was so excited to see a little fluttering heartbeat. Words cannot express the destruction those two words carry with them.
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
If someone would have told me a few years ago that I would be where I am today, I would have laughed in their face. Life has funny way of changing on you just when you think you have a grip on everything. I thank God for unanswered prayers. I also thank him for answered ones. Smiles all around.
Monday, April 13, 2015
As we get older, so does everyone else in our life. Profound realization huh? All jokes aside, it seems like lately I can't go a few days without finding out some bad news about someone. My Uncle has a Stage 4 Glioblastoma. Glioblastoma multiforme (GBM), WHO classification name "glioblastoma", also known as Grade IV Astrocytoma, is the most common and most aggressive malignant primary brain tumor in humans, involving glial cells and accounting for 52% of all functional tissue brain tumor cases and 20% of all intracranial tumors. GBM is a rare disease, with an incidence of 2–3 cases per 100,000 person life-years in Europe and North America. It presents two variants: giant cell glioblastoma and gliosarcoma. About 50% of the patients diagnosed with GBM die within one year, while 90% within three years. Treatment can involve chemotherapy, radiation and surgery. Median survival with standard-of-care radiation and chemotherapy with temozolomide is 15 months. Median survival without treatment is 4½ months. Insert sad face here. Just last week, a good friend lost his Mother after she was sick for barely a week. Dee was a great woman. Then, to add to all matters, S's Stepdad potentially has Stage 4 lung cancer. Death comes in threes they say. I say bull damn shit. #Fuckyoucancer